When Does the Violence and Harassment Stop?

 The Healing Journey! We planned to Drive from Colorado to California. This trip is exciting as I have not been to CA since 2008. My last trip there was to pick up my children from their biological father who stated if I "wanted them back, you have to come get them." This trip caused me a panic attack, which I have not experienced before. My husband was kind and talked me through it till I was able to breathe again. This trip reminded me of how I had to literally drop everything and drive in a panic to get my kids. I was scared I would never see them again. During this trip my anxiety would rise the closer we got to places which reminded me of my past or it was a city I actually lived in. Each time I was reminded, by God, that I was going to be okay. When we reached certain cities, a sign, a literal sign, was on the side of the road and read, "Prayer changes things". I felt a calm come over me. This sign presented itself 3 times for me on this trip.  It was at the...

As the years go by and the harassment continues. I cannot give energy to the negativity which I have dealt with for so many years. My kids are grown and I no longer need to protect them. They got this. I got this.  The only thing I can say is I hope God can heal your mind and your heart. I have forgiven you, but know forgiveness is not for you, but it is very much for me and my peace. I will never forget the pain you caused me or the terrible memories I have, but I can let go of the hurt and fear. I am no longer afraid of you. You no longer cause me anxiety or panic. I have learned why God put me through this and I am grateful to come out of it alive. It helped push me to do good things with God's help. I am now in a positive place and helping God's children through their pain and trauma.  I thank you for teaching me what abuse was. I thank you for pushing me to leave, with my children, and live the life God wanted me to live.  I pray for you and hope that you can find pe...

  BREAKING MY SILENCE If this is the first page you see...  you are not viewing the FULL blog, there have been many events since the start of this blog, however this one is my story.  SEE LINK AT THE BOTTOM , TO SEE THE FULL BLOG WHEN YOU ARE DONE READING It will look like this LEAVE YOUR COMMENTS/THOUGHTS AT THE END OF THIS BLOG. YOU CAN BE LISTED AS ANONYMOUS, SO SPEAK FREELY! MY STORY I never wanted to talk about this or let people know I was in any danger. However, it seems the more I stood qui et , more victims were created. Please understand everyone experiences trauma and abuse in different manners. I know there are women out there who experience this worse than I ... however, never make other victims/survivors of DV feel as if their story is less than yours. Empower others and help each other continue to survive! I wanted to desc rib e to you what I have been through and what I continue to go on a yearly and sometimes daily basi...